WOOO

So, I'm FINALLY going to university! My first class is on January 12th. I'm on a waiting list to get into two classes and I have a seat in one. I'm on a list for human services [studying how people interact] and english. I'm in Psycology. There is lots of happiness being exuded by myself right about now.
The music class I wanted isn't offered in the winter, so I have to wait for that one to come back, but I don't mind, as long as I get it.

I got a hair cut.

I've started re-reading the Harry Potter series [for the 9th time each...i wish i was exaggerating] and I'm reading The Tommyknockers by Stephen King.

2 days til christmas! Super excited, I love the holiday season... and the fact that my friend gave me my favourite drink for a gift and i've already indulged in it, maybe too much. =]

Pretty sure that's all that's new. Side note, I've also updated my review blog finally. I've decided that my new years resolution is to actually follow through with my promises on here and to try making more youtube videos. Sounds easy enough, right? I wish.

So, because I'm in a great [and slightly drunk] mood, I shall ask a merry question: What's one thing you REALLY want this christmas [or whatever you celebrate] and why do you want it?

Have a happy christmas to everyone!

xxx

ATTN: Drowning

I don't know if I'll make it out of this house alive.
I [hopefully] start at UFV in a month for a four month program.
I get a better job, get my 'N' [probably] and move out.
Start saving up to help pay for it, but probably get ANOTHER student loan/grant and take my theatre program and a philosophy/writing/german course.
I'll finally be happy.I'll finally get my life straight sort of.

I really don't think I'll get there, but a girl can dream.
Dreams are all I have left.
Dreams and my friends.
Kay, dreams, friends, music and video games.
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.
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-_-

I need an uplifting message, anyone!
I need out of this house.
I need a better life.
Now.
So long, and thanks for the fish. <3
By the way; Suffering from what my doctor calls depression, stress and general badness. He's my favourite for the day. [Getting anti-depressants soon] woooo.

ATTN: sorry?

So, I have been completely neglecting my computer for the past week and a half. Don't take it personally, I've been off reading, working and staying with other family.

In other news, I have an appointment on Monday with a career councillor at the local university and I'm super nervous about it because that'll mean taking that huge step forward to actually doing something with my life other than renting videos out to people and having them dump their shit on me for minimum wage. =]

I went and stayed with my aunt for a couple days and it was really nice. Just getting away from this house and my parents and stuff. All four of her kids made a point to come over while I was there just to see me. I saw my cousin Steve's wife on her birthday and I saw my cousin Jenny's boyfriend a few times, and she even ditched him to just sit and watch a movie with me. My aunt and Jenny both took me driving, I got to help make super healthy dinners and I didn't even play my DS the whole 3 days I was there. I was so proud of myself. Plus, Jenny gave me a pair of sunglasses that I can't even wear now [explaination below].

I got new organizer things for my desk area finally in preperation for university and it's really nice. There's a thing for my pens and pencils, there's something for my markers, scissors and stuff, a thing for memo's and lastly a holder for all of my papers. It's all a really nice shade of pink [it goes great with the bright blue of my walls], which surprised me completely.

Second to last on my update list. Right before I went away, I got a new cell phone. [HURRAH!]. It's a texting phone, so it's one that slides and has a full keyboard built in. It's fancy. I love it so much but my dad keeps wanting to mess with it and stuff and now he's done something to it and part of it is locked off from access to me. I'm infuriated about it for obvious reasons.

Lastly, I have a nice shiny new bruise on my right eye. It's gone green in spots and looks super creepy. Because of it going a little onto my nose I can't wear my glasses for driving OR for reading OOORRR sunglasses [like the ones Jenny gave me]. The person who gave it to me's a complete tosser and it was completely uncalled for. Yet, here we are.

Oh oh oh. Almost forgot. Fully going to see Harry potter and the Half Blood prince tomorrow..for the third time! Hells yeah I'm excited! I'm going with my friend Claire and her mum. It's gonna be wicked cool.

Okay, I'm PRETTY sure that's all. If I get bored later with nothing to blog about, I'll probably edit this.
Thanks for reading, and again, sorry for the slow update. Don't be afraid to follow my blog if you want, I don't bite..Wait, yes I do, but not hard. Oh, yes I do..Hm. Well follow it and I MIGHT not bite you too hard. ;)
xxxxx


SIDE NOTE:
new video on youtube, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4txBcI0ctZQ love it for me? <3

ATTN: Possible University and Ramble

"You are the one, the one who lies close to me...There's no place else I'd rather be but here in your arms." [Here in Your Arms, Hellogoodbye]I'm listening to that song for the first time in ages and it made me remember how much I love it.

Anyways, random note.

I wanted to ramble.

I have red hair [-ish]

I have ink all over my hands from a broken pen [nothing more sad]

I also have an apointment with a career councillor at UFV and I'm scared stiff at the thought. =]You see, going for the apointment means taking a big step towards going to university...a year later than everyone from my grad class.
I've been the new kid once..when I was 5...and going to kindergarten, just like everyone else.I don't do well in a new social situation, especially when I don't know anyone.
I have no clue what I want to take.
I'm not overly good at anything, I just really like music and theatre stuff.
There's apparently a "General Studies" course I can take that would cover a bunch of different topics and I get to pick from one of the things that appeal to me.

"And does he notice my feelings for him. And will he see how much he means to me. I think it's not to be." [Sally's song, Nightmare Before Christmas..it just came on.]

I feel so overwhelmed and overly confused by all of it.
Paul shouldn't have left, even if he was feeling ill. When he was here I didn't feel as freaked. He walked out the door and his spot made room for my worry, and the open door invited the thoughts in.

I want to go back to high school; I feel like I belong there still. Kind of like I'm on an extended summer holiday from last year. I'll be going back to be taught by Mr. Duliba and Mrs. Mangat any day now.

Is that normal?

Anyways, I think I might just go and read, that sometimes helps.

G'night to anyone out there. <3